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I have been apart of Deviant art for seven years I have seen it go through a lot of changes and made a lot of friends through sharing and viewing art, other people's art inspires me and I am glad if my art inspires someone else. I thought about leaving the deviant art community SEVERALY times but through it all im still an active member even though most of my followers and friends have come and gone there lives go busy and they moved on. As for myself I'm not doing as much art these days but I try my hardest to make time to create something every now and again because without art in my life (and my handsome dashing bf...) things would get really boring really fast. I will never stop being inspired by art, by all of you (and im NOT talking about all u wankers taking pics of ur...pussies) Recently I have done some inward searching and im still working on having a business in photography one day. I have gotten a new camera about a year or so ago it amazes me how I went from using a Fuji finepix now I have a cannon eos rebel t3i which was given to me by my brother who wasn't using it anymore for his film projects. He even gave me a 72 mm lenses to go with it and it weights over a pound itself so it's a new thing to get used to lol. Im hoping to do more shoots in the future and starting being more of an active member on here again. Originally I wasn't going to give Deviant art another go but I would love some feedback on my progress I think that's what most of us are here for aren't we? I will try not to be as absent as I have been because these past two years I have went from working two jobs to working at a factory for 56 hours a week back to two jobs (I got bills people :d)
I had a shoot yesterday for the first time in almost a year and it was good feeling doing something creative again. hopefully it wount be over a year before I submit again but for those of you still active and following me thanks for admiring my art and until we meet again.

Dose anyone EVER read this shit?

I mean I feel like I could confess i fuck goats, and no one would get the memo.
oh well since journals are as worthless as kim kardashians wedding vows i guess i'll also admit i fucking hate cats, all things associated with the word orange and your mom.





...lets see how many watches I have left after this rant

I have decided to stay with deviant art for now even tho I don't like this sites "popularity contest" attitude their's still more reasons to stay here on DA that outweigh all the cat pictures and facebook worthy snapshots. I am however planning to move my account, but I will be keeping this one up for a while anyways. I'm just hoping everyone will follow, I have this feeling it's going to be a disaster moving things over to the new account :/ anywho I need to think up a new username  that will not be such an epic fail like this one. Just though I'd let everyone know their will be no new deviations on this page as of today. It's gonna take me like a week to get a new account set up so I'll notify everyone in another journal of that new account when it's set up. Hopefully this move is worth the hassle and I won't regret it.

.... today is my last day in my old house. I'm going live in our new house for the summer. Sounds enticing I know, but im not exited basically for the second summer in a row im being FORCED to move again leave all my friends and fail at meeting new ones. No more portrait photography for a while, but with all the new and bigger space at our new house I will be working on nature photography I'll try to keep my account active as I have always found a way to. This summer im going to make a goal to finally decide if I am perusing a professional career in art. Everything is so uncertain and I know nothing right now. I don't know where life is taking me or where im supposed to go or do I guess that's the upside to having a blank canvas is that anything possible can be invisioned. I hope when I finally decide on a career or what to go to collage for I won't regret it that's probability my biggest fear besides being a total failure for the rest of my life trying to live up to some silly dream. I trying to think more realistically about what to do with my life, but the truth is I love being creative too much and if I choose a safe job making good money I'll always wonder what might have become had I went with what I really wanted to do with my life, as of right now being a photographer is too iffy and too far fetch I'll fear I'll never fucking make it out of my parents house and that to me is the worst hell of all.

I for one am glad deviant ART has finally lost it's right to have the name art in it. I wonder if anyone else who actually cares about REAL art is bothered by the fact all that ever gets recognition on this site is shitty renderings of animes, mangas, titties and don't even get me started on cats X (
it's making my decision much easier ever day on packing up my amateur art and blowing this taco stand. im pretty sure  mature art is becoming a rarity here on this site and im sure im not the only one who is noticing this.  I was wondering if their where other art sharing websites for mature real fucking art, cuz I would love some suggestions cuz I really don't want to keep putting up art here where some snap shot of a girls chest she took with her iphone is getting more appreciation that artist who REALLY deserve to be known and have their art shared with the world.